I am a firm believer in ‘manifestation’ of dreams and goals…I believe that having a clear vision of who you want to be in life can be your strongest attribute in becoming said person and achieving said dreams. I don’t believe in this theory because of anything I’ve read, heard or seen in movies…I believe these things because it has happened to me…time and time again.
When I was in grade 6 my sister was in grade 10 and took me to her high school to watch the school play. I remember stepping into the beautiful Theatre and taking my seat. Watching the excitement in the people around me as the huge red stage curtain lifted. And then watching these amazing young actors bring a script to life….then it happened. The centre stage light focused on a door and the lead actress stepped out. Dominating the stage and captivating the audience…..and in a single breath I knew that I would be where she was one day. I would be on that stage, in the lead role, living out a fantasy I had dreamed in my bedroom since i can remember.
Fast forward 4 years and I am a grade 10 student at the same High School my sister went to. It was announced that auditions for the school play were taking place and I made my way to the theatre, chose a monologue, and went home to practise. The next day I auditioned for the play; making 3 out of the 4 judges cry and was cast as the comic relief in the play. The moment I stepped out onto that stage I remembered the promise I had made to myself and felt my heart smiled. The following two years in high school I was cast as the lead female role and loved every minute of my time on that stage.
Last week I was having a conversation with a friend about where/how to book shows. I know playing in bars at 11:00pm at night is not the route that I should or want to take. No one goes to a bar and wants to see a girl sing and play piano. Unfortunately the Calgary music scene seems monopolized by these venues. There are almost no alternative to perform for free; which means the stakes are higher for me.
However, Calgary is a huge city. And the majority of Calgarians do not go to bars every weekend to see live music. But everyone listens to music….ergo there is a market for me if I can find a way to penetrate the people that dont go to bars.
Two days later I get a call from someone I met 8 months ago at a Yoga Workshop. She offered me a paid gig downtown where I could network with the corporate Calgary world. The day after that I was offered another similar gig and then yesterday another…All free gigs where I can play my music, meet new people, make a guaranteed amount of money, and none of them are at bars.
Some people would call it good luck, convenient timing, or maybe would not even acknowledge the connection. But I do.
I follow what my heart tells me to be true. I do the things in life that make me happy. I do my best to act with positive intentions and sometimes the universe sends me a gift…a reminder that I am on the right path and that despite the obstacles that I am bound to face, I will always have help when I need it.
I am not perfect. I make a lot of mistakes and have felt shame, guilt and sadness at my actions…but today Im thankful. Thankful for the lessons I have learned and the person I have become. Proud of myself for pursuing an impossible dream and excited to continue down this path.